Crossroads - which direction

[Rhino_Power]

Some of you will have played against me for the past year now. (I made only 1 post from 2008-2012) Before i took PL serious i was at best a break-even player. I had no real plan of action and played random games just for the sake of playing. I had no real hunger confidence or desire to improve or win if truth be told. My son needing less of my time has helped to a degree - i can now concentrate on games starting early evening as opposed to being restricted to ones starting too late to see through. From last summer-time things started to change. I listened to others (Samba/Yogi), i watched others, i railed others and i became a better player. Not just a better player but a hungry player with desire and an increasing confidence. The more i won the more i found i enjoyed the game and the start of a bankroll management plan began. I have played a lot of the PL games and found a lot of value-added ones along the way with plenty of freerolls too. I ended 2012 with a £610 "career profit" with two nice league champion trophies on here. I was going to post a new challenge for 2013 with the hope of breaking £1000 by the end of it. Not sure why maybe the worry of failure but i never did but i have kept an accurate bankroll and posted my winnings on here. I broke through £1000 at the start of July and i also have an i-pad which my family love so i exceeded expectations. The problem i have however is nights like tonight. I started playing at 7.30pm and played 4 MTTs finishing at 10.30pm. My total investment was only £1 on the Betfred social. I also played the Betfred Giveaway, Monday Free Bets, and Full Tilt Talksport to Galway. I won 50p on the Giveaway and a £5 free bet for finishing 4/259 - so at present im 50p down. I have the bankroll but i am not re-investing it! I am sat hours on end playing for peanuts with the occasional decent win to keep me ticking up. I posted 7 winnings in July for a poxy $32 today! Part of it is a mental block. I have previously played MTTs $10 regularly and occasionally more but i have always seemed to come out frustrated by a bad-beat. I move back to a play a freeroll and i hold every time so try a $10 and my aces suck out. I kind of already know what i should be doing from here and my main aim for writing is to try and inspire myself to move on a level, to take a % of my bankroll and try and spin it up quicker. I should not be worried over losing what ive grinded out so far. Its there to re-invest! I guess i am after any words of wisdom/support from you. Maybe some ideas of which tourneys i should play but im hoping by writing this im committing myself to stop playing Andy Murray Freerolls and play some real poker!

[Bart(UK)]

Re: Crossroads - which direction Hi Rhino, your post itself does you a tremendous amount of credit and is deserving of very detailed thought-provoking responses. The fact that you are raising these questions and considering your position carefully before doing anything shows exactly what a switched on player you are or have become :notworthy I can't at the moment put across what I was going to say without going into a rambling wall of text. Will therefore summarise later on tonight/tomorrow for you. Skype might also be a good option to share thoughts/questions/experiences etc. Feel free to pm me for my contact details, always happy sharing thoughts with fellow members.